Fighting the demons of regret
Fighting the demons of regret. (Mt 19:26)
Jesus looked at them and said, “For human beings this is impossible, but for God all things are possible.”
I think I am beginning to understand two church teachings. The first is there are many demons. One of the signs of holiness is unity; There is one God, there is one Church, Jesus Christ is one person with two natures both God and man. Where as, the sign for evil is many; it fractures, tears apart, divides.
With regret the enemy uses our dominant flaw and multiplies it (hence the many) by bringing forth old and new regret. So it begins with ‘if only I had ….’ And then is multiplied so that by the end of an hour I have hundreds of regrets and am cast into despair, anxiety and crippled with fear. So now, when the first regret comes to mind I say ‘Please Dearest Mother Mary let me learn from my past mistakes’ followed with 3 Hail Mary’s.
The second is to fight vice with virtue. One of my faults is to wish my life away. Wishing can lead to regret unless action is taken to obtain the desired wish. In the past, once the action called for sacrifice the action was often abandoned and the wish for the future was replaced with some immediate satisfaction which never lasted, was not fulfilling, did not truly satisfy my wants nor meet my desires but ultimately left me empty,unfulfilled, wanting more wishing for better and being unhappy.
The Church teaches us to use the virtue of prudence when fighting the vice of greed, the precursor to regret. So, the first thing I should do is consider my wish, examine it and take time to evaluate how and if it is realistic. If after careful consideration, it is deemed prudent to pursue and now it is realistic, where I can manage to stay the course, incur the sacrifices, therefore make my wish a reality and thus achieving my goal achieving success and the feeling of fulfillment. All the while, thanking God for his many graces and for the gift of prudence.
LET US PRAY:
All praise to you dear Lord Jesus Christ.
When all is dark and the sins of my past deeds lay heavy upon my soul and threaten to extinguish the light of my hope, You dear Christ lift me up.
Your divine love and promise for eternal life can not be snatched away from me. Although, the scratching claws of the enemy reaches out to grasp away any hope and suck away all life leaving nothing else but despair and death for me to feed upon, You dear Christ give me your body in the Sacrament of the Eucharist.
How could I, one who has received so much love, life and hope not be restored in faith through your divine intervention?
Dearest savior do not let me fall prey to self doubts, pity and past regrets but may I look to you. Keep my eyes upon your face and may I be delivered from this present danger.